oh shit..

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You don't really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire

-from goldinuniverse.com

work in progress

went to bethel at about 130 to rally before the game. was doing terrible. right when we left sean got there. the bus driver stopped but ms.hill just told him to keep on driving, hella mean. got there and was doing pretty good rallying with nayeem. watched part 1 of danilo's epic match, good shit there. played with bill as 3 dubs. the guys we played against were cool, but they fucking kept lobbing it every time. barely even hit any other forehands/backhands. wanted to play a 3rd set though, gonna work on overheads during practice. bus ride to bethel, argue with rodel, home. a little cod with gabe, talked on the phone for a bit, gets hella frustrated while playing haha. watched a little black hawk down, cod with mando for a little, and now back to black hawk down.

got a game tomorrow at bethel vs benicia, 330. why we gotta have games during spring break though..

you came in to my life

spring break thank you. been waiting for this all week. var next week?! maybe. teams 5-0. me and sicoro 5-0. badminton ended badly today, but oh well, doing tennis when we get back, get in some practice time with axl balls tyler and sarah. gonna get a new racquet too. time to relax for 2 weeks!

responsibility, twins, priorities, realization, deep talk, "LETS GO!!!", perspective, butteryass mondays, comeback that broke down, name that kills, confusing messages, we believe is gone, map pack looks damn good, daddy long legs, interesting talks, kai kai, danini, judgemental, fried rice, hella useless practice, feeling good, looking back, baldo's, war movies, long time no see, "same old calvin", she trusts us!, questionable, unbelievable, changes, where amazing happens, "this life is more than just a read through"